for any one else it may look an easy thing, either to saty or go! but it's not a simple choise, leaving will take me away! will give me a space to forget my sorrow and sadness, and it may give me a chance to hide a grive and then i may be able to move on emotionaly! i need to go because am realy exhuasted from smiling and holding my tears, i need to go because everything is reminding me of my broken heart, the streets, shops, resturants and even my own house, i need to go because memories do hunt me every sec. everything here become painful, even breathing i. i donate all cloth i was wearing in all our hangouts i gave away all the gifts and it still hurts like the 1st day we broke up, oh! god what else i can do to make this pain go away, what else i should do to make memories fade away! nothing else but leaving.
in the other hand if i go away i will be away, away from my family which just being around them make me feel worm and when i panic at nigh just looking at them sleeping makes my heart beats slow down and i hear that voice telling me u r not alone u will never be, u have them! i will be away from my friends the shoulder that i can cry on, who can listen to me forever with out complaing, who can feel how deep my wound and how much it hurts, who they don't judge me because they understand me,who i can count on them to support me when i collapse, who they see me in my weakest moments and they still believe that am a strong person and believe that i can pull my self together, i will be away from all this.
oh god! what else i should do to get my life back, for now i know one thing that am running out of time, so being in agony will not hold me back, i figure out away to fix my self! u took my past away and u r taking my present now but my future it's as far as stars form u and some day ,one day all this pain will be gone and i will have my life back.
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