Love is nothing but our own fantasy!
Is that is true? it could be true regarding to how things did end! but it doesn't make sense that u& all those great feelings u surrounded me by are just a fantasy! and i made all that in my imagination! because u do exist, u are flesh and bone, every one else can see you, u have a name and a job, so you are not my imaginations out come!
You are my first and i know that i loved u, it's not a misunderstanding, because if i didn't love you, and all that was my own fantasy then why i was missing you the moment you leave, why i try to love everything u love, why i watched all your foot ball team games so you can enjoy talking to me, why i listen to the songs that you like, why every time i saw something nice i wished if i can buy it for you, why i always did smile when i hear your name, why i spent hours cooking for you, why no matter what my problem was hearing your voice was calming me, why it didn't matter where to go as long as we are together, why i dreamed about our future together, if i didn't love you then why only looking at you was meaning the whole world to me.
And you loved me! am sure of that, it's not possible that i was wrong, or just imagining so, because i felt your love in everything you did or said, i would swear that i can touch your love, your love to me it's not my fantasy i mean you are my sweet.........., you used to call me every night before you go to bed because you wanted my voice to be the last you hear, you used to take me out alot so i can have fun as much as i can, you used to spend your break hours driving to bring me food and watching me eat so u can be sure that i have enough food, you used to show up with out a notice because you loved the way i looked at you when i don't expect to see you, you used to send me the same song over and over which talking about that you pray to god everyday that we end up together and forever and you used to show up in front of my house bringing my favourite things because seeing me smile was your greatest joy! so am sure that you loved me! but if u did so! then why? why we end like this! SO I THINK OUR LOVE WAS A FANTASY AFTER ALL
love is pain, there is nothing beautiful about love just the idea of it. no denial what you 2 had was amazing but think of it that he was just the broom that cleaned the table before you put the bigh meal.
ReplyDeleteya we had something! but...........
ReplyDeletewell am gona try thinking obout it this way! although no matter how you think about it still hurt!